I turned 30 this April.
It’s a scary experience, especially for me. You are not young anymore and you have nothing to show for your years. It’s just the time to wonder - how did I screw-up my life with such perfection?
I look in the mirror and I see a fat, dark man with a funny mustache and no prospects. And to think of all the resolutions I made over the years!
At 21, I was renting and watching 4 movies everyday from Collection Videos, making a mess of my eyes and studies. I wanted to be Stanley Kubrick, if not Scorsese.
At 23, I ditched movies to enter the world of literature. I dreamed of being a best-selling, Booker prize-winning novelist. Like Arundhati Roy meets JK Rowling. Hoo-Hah!
At 25, I thought: forget it, who wants to be the literary toast of the season? Why settle for ephemeral fame like Roy/Rowling, when I could become a cult writer. You know somebody like Saint Exupery or Roald Dahl. Basic English, child-like sketches and a big fan following. Yeah, I could do that!
At 27, I thought, shit, I would settle for being at least a Ruskin Bond. God please, I beg you.
At 30, I still haven’t written a line.
It’s the law of diminishing expectations all the way. I look forward to a bleak future with great trepidation.
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haaa...ha..ha..tera number zaroor aayega!
Hey Future Booker prize-winning novelist,
Why would you settle for being at least a Ruskin Bond. You are Sunil Shiv Shanker. Now your 30...and trust me if you believe in your self...Your dream of being a best-selling, Booker prize-winning novelist is no far...! Creativity as no age bar or sex bar or year bar...or..for that matter any bar bar...You can do it...If Sparky can do it...why can't you or me or anyone..fulfill one's dream...read on...
Sparky his dream and his Success!
Sparky - Charlie Brown A story is told about a boy named Sparky. For Sparky school was all but impossible. He failed every subject in the eighth grade. He flunked physics in high school. Receiving a flat zero in the course, he distinguished himeself as the worst physics student in the school's history. Sparky also flunked Latin, algebra and English. He didn't do much better in sports. Although he did manage to make the school's golf team, he promptly lost the only important match of the season. There was a consolation match; he lost that, too.
Throughout his youth Sparky was awkward socially. He was not actually disliked by the other students; no one cared that much. He was astonished if a classmate ever said hello to him outside of school hours. There's no way to tell how he might have done at dating. Sparky never once asked a girl to go out in high school. He was too afraid of being turned down.
Sparky was a loser. He, his classmates... everyone knew it. So he rolled with it. Sparky had made up his mind early in life that if things were meant to work out, they would. Otherwise he would content himself with what appeared to be his inevitable mediocrity.
However, one thing was was important to Sparky - drawing. He was proud of his artwork. Of course, no one else appreciated it. In his senior year of high school, he submitted some cartoons to the editors of the yearbook. They were turned down. Despite this particularly painful rejection, Sparky was so convinced of his ability that he decided to become a professional artist.
Upon graduating from high school, he wrote a letter to Walt Disney Studios. He was told to send some samples of his artwork, and the subject matter for a cartoons was suggested. Sparky drew the proposed cartoon. He spent a great deal of time on it and on all the other drawings he submitted. Finally the reply came from Disney Studios, he had been rejected once again. Another loss for the loser.
So Sparky decided to write his own autobiography in cartoons. He described his childhood self - a little-boy loser and chronic underarchiever. The cartoon character would soon become famous worldwide. For Sparky, the boy who had failed every subject in the eight grade and whose work was rejected again and again, was Charles Schulz. He created the "Peanuts" comic strip and the little cartoons boy whose kite would never fly and who never succeeded in kicking the football - Charlie Brown. (A great newspaper comic strip)
Hello Sunil,
Join the party, i'll be 30 in september
I'm Idle , hell, have a bash ,..
Cheers
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